Fear not!

Whaddup peeps..

Ok, so this morning, i leave Susie at home and decide to use public transport to work.

I'm fortunate to get one on time and we head off to work via third mainland bridge. Now, no one told us our driver was one of those insane, daredevil danfo drivers and honestly, the ride to work was not a fun trip.

Female passengers were yelling at the guy and the men were all trying to put up unconcerned faces and through it all, i think the silly driver was actually enjoying it.

Me? i was very concerned but tried not to let it show. My usual policy in situations like this is to sit tight and try not to distract whichever idiot's hands i've put my life into by joining the shouting.

 The scared faces around me got me thinking about things in life which i'm scared of /worried about  but try not to bother too much about.  So i decided to just list them out and from time to time, read this post, update it as i remember and try to come to terms with them all. In no particular order, here goes.

• I'm scared of my parents dying. I know this will eventually happen but its still something which literally has me paralyzed in fear.
• I'm very worried that i'm never going to be financially stable enough to raise and support a family.
• I'm scared of going for a HIV test, knowing that i've had unprotected sex before!. (i'd rather leave my status to God's hands and hope for the best). Silly, i know but who cares!.
• Speaking of God, i'm worried that i'm gradually losing my inclination to go to church. Not as if i don't believe in God, i do, but this my lethargy towards church is crazy.
• I'm scared shitless of anything bad happening to my family members.
• Not to put too much in it, but it sometimes bothers me that i may not be able to truly love only one woman
• I am totally freaked out when i have nightmares. Yes, freaked out as in shivering, sweating, in pain freaked out!
• I'm worried that i always give benefit of doubt.
• I'm scared of drowning.

That does it so far...

We got to our destination safely and the look i gave the driver could have shrunk his manhood. i just shook my head and got on with my life. No time.